Ambivalence

The Chronic State.

Sometimes I feel one thing, sometimes another and I like saying sometimes because it feels less submissive to my emotions. It feels less doomed than saying 'most days but every night and always on Mondays'.

But most da-, sometimes, my heart beats so fast that I fear I will use all its beats up. I consider that my dreams may just be dreams and most days but every night and always on Mondays, I succumb to the feeling, of feeling everything at once.

But then the sun rises again or it's Tuesday, and peace has a habit of returning. The belief does to.

LM